Don't Forget

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Don't Forget


I built up my walls

I don't want them taken down

Still you have a way of getting to me

My ongoing weakness

But if you can do better than me

Go ahead and tell me please

If I'm not what you need

Don't hesitate,

Go on your way,

Make sure not to hear my say

Don't you, ever forget

The true way, that you felt

I've been trying, slowly dying

Don't you ever forget me

I've done my best to keep cool

Thought I got past, the greens and blues

Still you have a way of alluding my defenses

It's so upsetting

But if you can do better than me

Go ahead and tell me please

If I'm not what you need

Don't hesitate,

Go on your way,

Make sure not to hear my say

Don't you, ever forget

The true way, that you felt

I've been trying, slowly dying

Don't you ever forget me

Now I can't stand to see you used

You know I'd never do that to you

Will see if his intentions are pure

Or if he's just leading you on

It's a regression

Yea you leave me helpless

So relentless

But I'll walk away

Before I get hurt

Remember each and every word

No I won't ever forget

The true way that it felt

I've been trying, slowly dying

No, I won't ever forget


Wishing Well

June 22, 10:02AM

Don't Forget: I stood with anger rising inside me. All at once, I was young again. Why childishness? Why now? Caring as much as I did, led me to act carelessly. I left in a hurry, dishonest with myself.

Relentless: the words screamed inside of my head, and I had no defense. I was trapped. It was the worst of both worlds: Unable to act on the outside, while quickly masking my pain on the inside. In a sudden rush, I became embarrassed. Embarrassed that her heart was with someone else, while mine was exposed. That I didn't see reality for what it was. That she couldn't see reality for what it was. The contradictions were endless. Why did I even show up?

Interruptions: As responsible as I was, was I responsible? I couldn't be responsible, could I? I felt bad that I may have created a turning point in an ongoing conversation that I didn't understand. I felt bad that I may have interrupted timing, changing the history of another.

Reoccurring Flashback: The pictures are enough to make my heart sink. What a reminder. She had a fit.

Disconnect: So, I left. I left the moment. I left the night. I left the group, the mind, the emotions, and the memories behind.

Reminder: There is no denying when the eyes shine. As the wise man once told me, you always know when someone is in love because their eyes are bright as if they have that which is lost to the rest of the world. She had that.

Haunting: it followed me wherever I went to indicate that in order to move on, I had to let go. It rained for three weeks consecutively, non-stop, without break, without interruption. I longed for an interruption, a change, a reminder, a sign, or the unexpected.

The Long Road: I wish every-night for the ending that was supposed to be. For them to continue their conversation. For her, not me. When fate is tempted, it will at least give you a chance. My narrative is not so clear.

Questions: Turning a page, or trying to turn back time?